... when I said that new music from the Pack AD would elicit more art. I haven't painted anything yet, but given that I'm typing this at 2am, I can say with confidence that the need to paint is actually keeping me up tonight. And I would stay up to paint except that I need to be alert and productive tomorrow, so I'm opting to purge some thoughts here in order to get some sleep.
I'm kept awake because a few days ago, my oft-mentioned artistic muse the Pack AD released a video for a song from their last album, along with a four-song EP. There should be no doubt that I downloaded all five items from iTunes as quickly as possible; to say that I've been excited for new material from these ladies is a massive understatement.
The EP, entitled 'Meta Animal', has 'Animal' from their last album, 'Motorvate' a song they played on tour last year, but was only available to download for people who pre-ordered the last album (like me), a cover of the Three Oh Sees 'Nightcrawler', and 'Back in a Hole', a new song.
Can I tell you about that new song?
The first time I listened to it I was struck by the airy, almost sweet quality it seemed to have. Its acoustic; the vocals and guitar are without the usual hard edge that characterizes their music. Musically, the song is beautiful; Becky Black has an incredible voice, but lyrically it left me with a distinct pit in my stomach.
After listening twice more that uncomfortable pit just grew; I was extremely emotional. To say I felt 'sad' seems trivial because it was something more than that... I felt heart sick and I had to convince myself to listen to the song again. When I paid more attention to the lyrics, I realized there was absolutely nothing airy or sweet about them. While I can hear two 'voices,' its the desperation and loneliness of someone drowning in themselves that stands out the most...
... I know this painting is going to be emotionally draining.